I'm working on a difficult text today and next week from Matthew 6. They are about putting trust in money and worrying about "stuff." And I stand convicted!
I guess I am a fretter by nature. When we 1st got married, I worried about making the car payment and if we would ever have a house. The next stage was how to pay for the kids' diapers. Then it was how to pay for the kids' braces. Then it was how to pay for the kids' college. Then it was how to pay for the kids' weddings. Then it was how to pay for the grandkid's everything!
Now, I've moved into a new chapter of fretting. Now it's how will I pay for our healthcare and will I ever be able to retire.
But as I look back over my list of "frets," there is a clear pattern here. God provided! He provided for every one of them. I didn't know how we would do it at the time, but every one of them were taken care of. Not one late payment. And we haven't missed a meal, either (I know, that is obvious).
So, you would think I would learn. "You cannot serve two masters." I choose with my heart to serve the One who has been faithful to me all the way. But I will continue to battle in my head. Because my head says, "2+2=4." But somehow, God makes 2+1-1/2=4." He always provides what I can't figure out.
So, these texts will capture my attention. Part of me is really looking forward to them. But part of me isn't, because they are a direct shot at the heart of my (lack of) faith.
LATE UPDATE!!!!! I just found out that Jonathan and Jennifer are going to have a boy! Jedidiah! Due in June.