Monday, March 01, 2010

Broken and Empty

I am back at the office this morning. It's not where I want to be -- but it is where I need to be.

We just finished the month of February, and I am glad it is the shortest month of the year because it has been brutal. As a family, we keep looking for explanations. We try to make some sense out of this whole thing. But we hear only silence. Still the silence is better than any attempts to explain at this point (That probably won't make sense unless you have been there).

Today I plan to open the Word and read from Yancey's Prayer, as well as Disappointment with God.

As a family we are empty today. We believe the Lord will again fill us. The other day, Josh said that we, a family of ministers, will be "playing wounded" for a while. He told about how Emmitt Smith played one of his greatest games with a separated shoulder. And while I totally understood and agree with Josh, I couldn't help but say, "I would rather play with a separated shoulder than with a broken heart."

Yet today I find myself hearing over and over again the words of my daughter, who said, "I want people to remember me as someone who, even when she didn't get her way, praised the Lord." That is what I choose to do.


NJ Stevenson said...

Rick, praying with you and the family. I pray God continue to strengthen you all and that in those times when the tears well in your soul as you are healing that you let him wrap his arms around you be the comforter that HE is.

Lauren said...

Thank you for choosing to continue to trust the Way of Christ, even when you don't understand. My life has been made better because of the blessing of watching your precious family walk so committed to Jesus in this season of grief and brokenness. I am so grateful for the Ross family! You are all blessings in the Body of Christ. I yearn to be celebrated the way Jenny was at the end of my earthly journey. Bless you, Rick as you and Beverly cling to Jesus!

Jeff said...

I love you brother. I wish I had the words but know that only God can fill you up in the way you need it most. Know I am always ready to help in whatever way that I can and that my prayers for you and your family will keep going up to God.

Anonymous said...

You have so many people lifting you (all) before the Father. I pray that peace may come soon.

Brooks Inc. said...

Praying the Lord continues to surround you and your family. You all remain with us in every thought and every prayer. May you feel the Lord sheltering you today...Echoing your prayer that He would come quickly!

Mary said...

Lives have been made better because of the blessings your family has shown to the world in the midst of tragedy.

I pray that God will continue to strengthen you all in the days ahead.


Anonymous said...

To my favorite brother-in-law.
My heart hurts so much for you and the family. So, sorry I could not be there to give a hug.
I wish I could say a lot of Godly words to help glue you back together. I know the verses that talk about how much better things will be, but that probably doesn't help too much right now.
Just know that our arms are wrapped around you all and many prayers are being spoken.

Dianne Ross

Anonymous said...

I love you Rick. Wish there was something I could do or say to help you heal, but there isn't. I can't begin to understand your pain and I won't even attempt to try. I am praying daily for you. Bart Sirman

Anonymous said...

I love you Rick. I wish there was something I could do or say to help you heal, but there isn't. I can't begin to understand your pain and I won't even attepmt to try. I pray for you daily and I am always here to help if you need anything. Bart Sirman